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Tuesday, November 18th, 2003
6:56 pm	no more of this journal new one = touch_of_xpink add it. you haveto comment or im not adding you. bye
3:20 pm	color me obsessed . . . with my "rockstar" boy 04 days 18 hours 10 minutes if i dont tlak to him soon ill die. anyway i have new pictures of me and gibson. and my new skrit. and the three of us look hot. good job marie. Current Mood: crazy Current Music: unwell hahahah . . .how ironic. . .
2:07 pm	pass the dutch baaaaaby i hate being sick for once. i usually love it cuz as usual being sick = playing guitar, wathching bet and laughing, mtv video clash and room raiders all day, old movies on amc, going on the comp., diet cherry coke and circus animal crackers all day. my mom got worried. who blames her, i am too. we went to the doctor. i felt like i was gonna pass out when i signed in and was about to fall over so i walked ot the couch and sat like 3 seats away form some bitchy lady knitting a heinous scarf. and she goes are you sick?! and im like "no" and she gives me this disgusted look and goe to my mom is she sick?! and my moms like no. andi gave her the worst look and got up and wlaked across the room so i didnt like kill her with my "sickness" or anything. some people are so rude. anyway. when nancy saw us, we talked about my grades, and i realized how little my mom knows about my life. she has NO CLUE wat anything is like. shes never home. i see her what 6 hours a week? makes sense. . . and then anncy was really happy. what am i supposed to say with my mom right there. so i jsut siled and nodded. i dont know how i didnt start crying. she also asked what i do on the weekends. i told her nothing cuz i coudltn spend the night anywhere. she goes oh i see. and she like you dont eve ngo out with your firends? and i said they dont invite me anywhere anymore becasue they knowi cant spend the night anywhere so its pointless. my mom kinda looked upset at that. yeah well i dont know why no one invites me anywhere anymore, dont know what i did, but sorry guys. i guess im jsut annoying and dumb and bitchy and a loser. watever. this ahppened last year too, that sucked but watever. marie and jackie are my only real friends rgiht now. if u disagree, prove me wrong. but i know noone will. dont be scared to suprise me though guys. watever anyway . . . i really think im sick though. theres something really worng with me. i dont know what though. i saw nancy looked worried. great. so yeah i can play that wyclef and missy song party to damascus, the first part of house on the rising sun and smoke over water know. all jsut form eing sick and lying in bed doing nothing. i watched the nutty prfesser today. hahhaahaha i laughed actually when the wegihts like pull him back against the wall and hes like INVIGERATING!!! hahaha. i <3 "being sick" water polo agian tommarrow. sigh. <3shannon Current Mood: crying Current Music: missy and wyclef - party to demascus (3 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)
Friday, November 14th, 2003
6:50 pm	oh man, arend rocks my world. hes a crazy kid. SuGaRxNxSpIcEx0: he had a liver transplant he cnat do anything hockeynpolo: oo why¿ what happpened SuGaRxNxSpIcEx0: too mayn durgs before hockeynpolo: oo seee. drugs mess you up so don't do them. My frined is also in the hospital. he has lost a lot of blood too SuGaRxNxSpIcEx0: whwhys he in the hospital hockeynpolo: he messed up his kidney by falling on a metal post hockeynpolo: and he cut his kidney so a lot of blood was lost SuGaRxNxSpIcEx0: that has ntohing to do with drugs hockeynpolo: ya I know ok . . . lol i ahvnet tlakedto HIM at all today. but i CANT stop thinking about him. sigh. im so pathetic. (( NOPE its not arend either. )) Current Mood: hungry Current Music: homegrown - surfer girl
Tuesday, November 11th, 2003
4:57 pm	GIBSON SG IS NOW MINE YES INDEED grahame: id jsut like to point out how incredibly dumb it is that you are grounded on your birthdya i agree <33 i bet even teresa can hear me cuz my guitar is SO LOUD AND SOOO EFFING COOL. (5 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)
Monday, November 10th, 2003
6:42 pm	nothing like jack to make me happy i love youuuu jack: o man, what a stoner. only a stoner. i gotta meet your dad. jack: well your gona have a kickass bday and if i was there id sex you up good lol me: aww i wish! yeah lots of people say that to me (about my dad) jack: oh i was gonna say lots of people wanna sex you up good? hahahhahah omg. if i dont get my ass to virignia soon im gonna die. ::sigh:: Current Mood: loved Current Music: distillers - la girl - what the FUCK happened to you?!
3:00 pm	happy fucking birthday to their favorite failure. do you have horseback today? no what about tommarrow. no, of course not. why do you say that? well, id rather do something else, were gong to dinner anyway. why are you going to dinner and with who? blank stare. . . im going with you and mom, and marie. for? its my birthday tommarrow. oh, is it really? Current Mood: crushed Current Music: tears for fears - head over heels (3 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)
Saturday, November 8th, 2003
1:01 pm	28:06:42:12 that's when the world will end tell me elizabeth, how exactly does one suck a fuck?! chut up! go back to china, BITCH. good shit, its a fucking ciggerette boo boo kitty fuck KRISTEN! tis 2 drunk people, of COURSE there are no fish in the fish tank! what do you think?! hah! in conclusion i would like to concluTe that . . . FUNERALS CAN be fuN! it was sad. but that was just OSME of the fun. go to maries journal, 3_drink_minimum to read the rest. on a sadder note, i am grounded so you wont be hearing from me at all online for a long long time. till the next report cards i suppose. call me though, please i cna tlak on the phone. 3457859 i cnat sleep over at anyones house though. that might be good though. not like anyone invites me anywhere anyway. hah. i htink im gonna get bangs agian. by the time im ungroudned theyll be gone anyway. by fattys. oh, and by the way i am obsessed with donnie darko. that would be a good b dya present seeing as i ahve no money to actaully BUY it and im stuck renting it, forever. burberry hermes coach a gibson sg are many other small things you cna get me thatd be acceptable. :: yeah so spoiled. dont tell me, i know:: byeeeeeee! Current Mood: grounded Current Music: echo and the bunnymen - the killing moon (2 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)
Thursday, November 6th, 2003
3:48 pm	must be good looking cuz shes so hard to see . . . that really sucked today. oh well. i have no black clothes and no one to go shopping with. im obivously doing nothin this weekend so ill talk to you all ifsomething exciting happens. the parent teacher meetings are on my birthday. i dont htink i can tell my mom. i dont want to cry on my birthday anymore than i will anyway. if i dont get my guitar i never talking ot my parents agian. and i know im not getting it, seems fair right? i miss kate. ross swiss. :) only thing that makes me smile. its sad. to actually think abouteverthing and say its not that bad and try to smile causes great physical pain. i started crying in the car today. my dad said he has no problem with me moving to virginia for a semester. we tlaked about it and then i said what about mom? we both looked at each other and looked worried. thats what i do like about my dad well and something else, we both understand what a fiucking loser my mom can be. oh and by the way, people i uh, supply sometimes, sorry your gonnna have to pay now. im tired of being used by every single one of you. if you wnat anyhting free you get the old soapy shit and only one "thing", yeha like i know what its called. well ,except for a few. i really am a bitch. i almost slammed some bitches head into a locker she was wlaking os slow. i hate this school so much. and another thing i think i have problems i was wlaking behind people today and i was like ooo i hope they fall down the stairs. but thats ok because i know a countless number of people feel the same way about me. whihc leads me to another question. what do people really say abbout me? i know already, fat, ugly, slut, stuck-up, bitch, greedy, self-centered, dumb, annoying, loser, i could go on, but theres no need, its all true and i know all of it too. so stop caring. the only good thing about today was some people actaully said bye to me - emily, cori, kathleen, theresa, glaspy it sounds dumb but it was nice they actually madea point to say something to me. wow, i really am a loser. oh well. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: some heartbreakers song (4 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)
Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
7:48 pm	no one knows what its like to be the bad man behind blue eyes. new user pic, like? thanks sylvie. i guess im not doing anyhing this weekend. lol. like usual. well kinda. friday- funeral with marie. then the game maybe at night? no one to go with iguess. . . hm saturday - get hair and nails done homecoming sunday - blaaah. community service. monday- homework? yeah . . . today my dad was like shannon come here. so i stopped doing my homework and he sits me down at the drums and teaches me these beats. and after i do them he goes hmmm, ok you have enough rhthym the guitar is a probably. hes so fucking weird. <333 gibson sg <333 the only thing i want for my b-day (psh . . . right.) at least warren has the connections. my mom is a bitch. im so screwed. has anyones grades come yet? i need to hide them when they come. teresa, when are we making kit-kats? now thats telekenisis, kyle! tenacious D owns Current Mood: im sooo tan! Current Music: tenacious d- wonderboyy (4 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)
Tuesday, November 4th, 2003
3:46 pm	living on reds, vitiman C and cocaine. or rogaine. haahhaa i cnat believe he said that yesterday elizabeth was explaing how excedrin could get rid of a headache in 15 mins. and it was gone. and how you take it before bed and fall asleep for the whole night. yeah, excedrin or a bottle of vodka, sweetie. wowo i cant believe i just said that. today in chem i laughed my ass off although i was the only one. some girl came in a took the skeleton and jsut walked out wiht it and ms. kass goes, omg who is ttaking my skeleton! stop! who took my skeleton?! and runs out after it. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. im listening to truckin by the grateful dead kennedys and bobby sounds SO differnet from now and in person. hahahha guess youd have to know. hahah he soudns so differnet its weird. crazy bobby- very pretty, guess you didnt inherit the down syndrome gene, eh?! dont worry, bobbys a homosexual((not really)). good fucking times. ok sorry i know you dont care. WOW yeah im tlaking about people i KNOW. im so STUCK UP. get over yourselfs. jsut cuz MY dad is in the dead kennedys. (teresa. . . hahha) FUCK HOMECOMING! FUCK FUCK FUCK! for those of you lucky enough NOT to have homecoming on saturday, have fun . . . DISTILLERS KROQ IN-STORE PERFORMANCE/SIGNING This Saturday, November 8th, The Distillers will be performing live and signing autographs at the Best Buy store in Yorba Linda, CA. It's part of the KROQ 2004 Calendar event, which runs from noon until 4:00pm. If you live in the Los Angeles area, make sure to catch this appearance. Best Buy Parking Lot 23000 Savi Ranch Parkway Yorba Linda, CA 92887 Current Mood: im cooler than you. Current Music: truckin - dead kennedys. (4 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)
Saturday, November 1st, 2003
9:28 pm	whatever poisons in this bottle will leave me broken sore and stiff. this is dumb. i fucking hate it. firneds or not? blahhh. god. watever. my grades are going to come. ill be groudned then i wont have to worry about drama cuz i wont be able to go out. ill BEG my dad if i canmove ot virginia for the rest of the year. like full on BEG. ill do anyhting to go there. thatd be so fucking great. cold. but great. and idont know any girls tehre so thatd be fine. ill hang out with the guys. and laugh at what a loser matt is. im not going ot new york. what did i do to deserve al lthis? arend is my best guy firned and i dont know whatd i do without him. i dont think he knows how much he helped me today. i dont really have any firneds left. the only people im still on good terms iwth are guys. hah. . . that suprises me. well guys and maggie. lol the only people im tlaking ot know. i got my hoemcoming stuff. its so hot. i love it. i jsut wish there was someone pretty enough ot wear them. its going ot look heinous on me. i wish id enver said yes. i love kevin but i dont want to go to this. and i doubt he does either. i love arend. hockeynpolo: adn then I could "teach " you to play polo. or just have jun wiht a hot girl in a pool i wonder where hes gonna find a hot girl. hah. hes the only one that cares rgiht now. and even if he doenst at least hes pretending to. it means something i saw shannon tonight/ i hoenstly wish i lived with her. my life would be better. i was so happy. shes really my sister. . . my dad comes home on monday. wow. hahahaha i cant even imagine how horirble that will be. heres wat will happen. first two days he sleeps. when he is awake he screams at me, or hes really nice, it differs. my grades come. hes exterememly disappoineted and wont get off my case for the next five. ok thats a week, then he realizes its my birthdya in 3 days and decides to be nice. dayy 9 forgets and is mean. day ten. day ten. either gives me my gibson sg and wishes me the "best birthday ever" and sayys im the best daughter ever to make up for the fact that ill be "devastated of a father" for a WHOLE month ((darn)). OR on day ten. hell completely flake on my birthday or remember but not get the guitar, promise me millions of things and says your the best daughter ever, and i CNAT wiat to be home before he leaves. hell call me in 2 weeks. then come home in december and it will start over but be more drawn out. if he ever even goes on tour agian. maybe i dont have the "rockstar dad" you imagined. actually i do have the "rockstar dad" just not what you thgouth hunny. fuck you. go back to your perfect life, with your rich family who gets along and your parents actually care. im sorry im a bitch and im sorry im so self centered im sorry i need a life and im sorry i annoy you. this was a long entry, and if you acutally read it, sorry i wasted your time. bye. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: boston (6 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)
11:22 am	were dutch. really. . . yesterday was pretty dumb until i went to kates. so yeah. teresa couldnt give me a ride home or even to the bottom of vanalden i guess os i had to beg marie to pick me up. so carla came and got me then we drove half an hour to pick up andrea from school, god that girl is the devil and then went to get marie and they were both pissed cuz we were so late. so that was an awkward drive. . i gave tehm dragon fire though so no one would have t o talk. i got home at 430 erica came and we drove an hour and a half to cheviot hills, halloween traffic sucks, and yay! so allaanna answered the door and i was SO excited i love ehr. and then we all (me kate camille lindsay and nicki) got there eventually, sam developed a crush one me. hahhaha not. then we went trick or treating. my costume fucking owned. we gota reasonable amount of candy. then we came home and went night swimming! sam entertained us with his magnificant swimming. hes a cool kid for someone whos. . . three. lol then we went and ATE! yes. lol salad and pizza and fun. sam, that crazy kid. lol and i tlaked to alanna then we went ot kates room and watched identity we were all sooo scared. gaah. we stopped anfter the man ffalls out of the freezer onto the hookah hooker. so then my mom came and i came home. and yeah. i stole more cds today. - steppenwolf. i doubt anyone knows who they are. lol . . . ive known them forever tho so its all cool. theyre good. -led zepplin of course cuz they fucking owns. -stole BACK my rock steady cd. i was wondering were it went. -another doors cd, the strange days one. -black crowes- hahahha chris' band. . . - and beatstie boys ill communitcations. the eagles own and youre gay. bye. ps its been 36 hours and 15 minutes. you should be proud. i am. sorry for watever i did that makes me deserve this. i get the picture. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: start the fire - no doubt. (3 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)
Wednesday, October 29th, 2003
7:27 pm	if you really want to party with me, put your hands where my eyes can see. . . hahahha im having so much fun listening to rap. muahahha. so yeah yesterday was too incredibly depressing. shannon and ryan left me. those were the BEST ten days of my life. from what i remember. . . i cried. then my mom came home and yelled and yelled at me. then this morning on the way to school she yelled and yelled at me. at school in chem i was crying the whole class. took a test, couldnt read half of it, i was crying the whole time. i dont think anyone notcied th, that wouldve been embarassing. so i failed that test. ms kass kept giving me dirty looks for crying in her class. god, sorry. then in french. i failed my test. i almost started crying then too. THE LITURGY!!! me and collen had the best time. we were sitting behind a horse, a pig and harry potter. harry potter had the most disgusting hair ive ever seen. god. if its gonna be that color u need to straighten it. anywho. we had fun i made colleen and pretty uh, paper oragami thing out of the booklet. heheheheh. lunch was. . . i dunno. im not mad at you teresa kelsey and i need starburst. in geometry i Cd my test. my mom is gonna flip a bitch when she sees my grades. maybe ill be gorunded so i wont have to worry about what im doing every weekend. and ican sit at home and smoke and listen to the doors all day everyday until my grades get better. thatd be perfect. no communication with anyone. wow i sound like a loser but at least thered be no drama. anywhoo during lunch ms ridnor tlaked to us. she is THE COOLEST teacher ive had. lol. shes so funny. hahah LV has the weridest teachers and staff. haha. i finally get a pipe. and guess what, ITS FOR A FUCKING LEFT HANDED PERSON. great. jsut great. maggie you and i need to make plans. lol. im not doing anything hallowwen seeing as i wasnt invited anywhere. o well now i dont have to worry about my costume. maybe ill stop by mareis. i love how we hang out now but were not like friends exactly. only we could pull it off. :D bye cock suckers. o and ps - u wnat to see my new shirt. its so fucking hot you woulnt believe and im hot in it. butamybe its jsut my hair. my hair looks good tonight. and yeah, i being a bitch. but guess wat, suprise i AM a bitch. and yeah i can be very selfabsorbed. watever. im cooler than you, get over it. Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: that high song part 2 - method man and red man (3 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)
Monday, October 27th, 2003
3:44 pm	jack: dont catch on fire. ill be so mad. like i wont forgive you for a LONG time. awww^^^ love my virginian . . . people. theyre all makiing sure im ok. kind of obsessivly but i love them why go camping when you can walk outside of your own house and get the good old fire smell. and who needs sky? theres jsut smoke now. jj and maddy and karly and whoever else lives out there, i hope ur guys's houses are ok and u guys too. today in french ms grande was teaching us how to smoke. wow. i thoguth it was hilarious. do you not want me around? if yes, just say so instead of letting me stay around until it gets wrose than this. i know u didnt realize but what you did today hurt me so much. i guess you didnt even think baout it but it took everything i had not to cry right then. who are my real friends>? ive frucked up everygood relationship ive ever had with someone. i want someone to be able to say that they consider me a TRUE friend. but i hoestly dont know who could or would think that now. the people i ocnsider my best firneds probably dont consider me the same. maybe they do. i dont know if i would be able to tell or not. i want to be homeschooled more than anything. get good grades so i cna go to college cuz maybe its not too late to help my chances if i havent fucked it up enough. then i cna party and do all the shit im doing now. cuz it hoenstly terrifies me when i meet people, older than me like in their 20s or jsut loder, like shannons firneds or hte people at the concerts that go OMG shes only 15?! when htey find out my age, "i didnt do ANY of that till i was like 19!" sure form one or two people thatd be fine but, its gotten to be too much. im out of control and i guess ive been hiding it lately but i have no control over anything i do anymore. but why am i telling you. you dont care, im sorry i wasted your time. bye. Current Mood: scared / depressed/ unloved Current Music: mad caddies - youth gone wild (4 think my mom's a milf | WOAH)